I have basically torched any chance at an Ivy-League university, and ive been too focused on totally meaningless and shallow ideas. And now any chance I had to go to the Ivy League university like i wanted to is gone. Most of the grades on my report card is in the Cs range and I will probably pay for that dearly.
This was not supposed to be my destiny. I was the person everyone had high hopes for and what have i become instead? someone who is insecure, never asserts her opinions and forever second-guesses herself. Oh wow i dont know what to do. My friends seem to be mad at me, no-one seems to be able to give me answers to my questions. Even though they dont have to answer my questions because it is my problem. But I feel lost, afraid and hurt. Ive made a complete idiot of myself.
I cant get into Yale or Columbia now, my grades would never pass the admissions board. I am truly sad and depressed. And its completely my fault. And though may seem overdramatic Lord I ask of thee please, what is gonna happen now? I was too be a shooting star, and I seem to be the opposite. What have I dont to myself.
Oh God what have I done?
jodiponders
The Journey of Life 
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